Archive | January 2013

Getting Things Back on Track

Hello strangers.  Just in case you have forgotten, it is I, the Legal Ballerina.  It has been a while since I have last posted.  I usually post once a day, but lately I have barely mustered enough motivation to post once a week.  There are good reasons for this.  Last week was mentally and emotionally draining.  I worked like a dog, my assistant was sick most of the week, so were my children, and I had a disagreement with a good friend.  I can take working long hours and tending to my children, but getting in arguments with people I care about is hard for me to deal with.  For so long I have disconnected myself from people (who are not family) and I have finally started letting other people in.  I quickly realized the more people you let in, the more likely you are going to get hurt. Hence, why I chose to seclude myself.  This is no way to live.  I decided to start taking chances on people and I am really glad I did.  Ms. Disney was my first friend in a long time.  We have had our ups and downs, but I trust her.  She will not abandon me over a difference of opinions or personality flaws (I have SO MANY).  I have recently started to get to know someone new and we are currently on a “down.”   I don’t know how she feels about it, but I really hope we can get things back on track and learn to trust each other again.  I am hopeful, but admittedly apprehensive.  I can control what I think and feel, but cannot control others.  I just have to stay positive and allow nature to take its course.  She is just too special to let go.

As for dance news – none to report, really.  All I know is I need to start putting in some serious practice time.  I have been a little lax on this.  Why? I am trying to be more physically rounded.  I started going back to the gym and working on cardio and upper body twice a week.  I dance twice a week and so that leaves one day where I can fit practice in.  That should be enough.  It has to.  I am just too busy with family and work to do any more than that. 

Speaking of exercise, my new gym routine has one unexpected drawback – my lower back has started to arch.   My butt sticks out, literally.  This was pointed out to me in class the other day.  Ballerinas do not have J Lo booties.  I know this new arch has something to do with me working out my lower back a lot.  I am trying to build the muscles in my lower back so I can hold my attitudes a terre, arabesques and a deeper bend in my port de bras.  Boo.  I think I need to work my abs more to balance out my core.  Ug.  Self improvement never ends.

I hope to have a better week.  I appreciate any good vibes you all can send me.

🙂

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Recital Dances Are Underway!

Yesterday I had my first experience in the Level I class.  The dancers are younger…a lot younger.  Ms. Disney, my sister and her best friend are in that class too, so I am not the only “adult” in there.  Although, I am the oldest. I know – “get used to it LB.” HA! I was a little nervous about jumping into the dance because the class had been working on it for a month.  Well, there was nothing to worry about.  Ms. Disney was right – the dance it easy, BUT pretty.  I picked it up easily.  The General said me and Ms. Disney are the “lighthouses” in the dance.  In dancer talk that means, “the people the audience looks at.”  I better not disappoint then!

Now for Level III.  This dance was a whole lot more complicated and most of the girls had already learned the first 30 seconds of the dance.  At first, I thought I was going to freak out.   Instead, I raised my hand (yes, I raise me hand in class.  STILL) and said, “You guys have got to break this dance down for me.  I am totally lost.”  Once we went over the dance step-by-step, it got easier.  So far, there are two attitiude turn combinations.  One from a soutenu and the other from a fouette turn.  OH BOY!  At least the pirouette we did was from the left, which is my good side.  The General even had us try on these long black dresses.  Off, the dresses look frumpy, but on, they are the shiz-nit! I feel like one of those frenchie-girls that rustle their skirts up and kick their legs about.  I realized the real benefit of wearing them soon after we started dancing – they hide flaws. Hellz yeah! I need all the flaw-helping I can get.

So, all in all, my future in the recital is looking bright.  I just need to keep practicing my attitudes, fouettes and pirouettes en dedans cause I have a feeling this dance is going to be riddled with them. (Gulp).

Weekend Update

Well, I finally got to talk to the General about the Level III ballet class. We spoke briefly between classes on Thursday. She told me that I would remain in the Level III class for the first hour; the second is reserved for the Company. Sounds cool to me. Then she asked me to stop in the Level I class to see if I wanted to do their dance for the recital too. Sounds equally as cool. My little sis is in that class and I always wanted to dance with her. My understanding after that conversation is that I would not be doing a Level III dance with the Company. I figured that would happen. I didn’t think I was good enough to dance in a Level III recital dance. I was satisfied with the General’s decision, but deep down, I wish she thought I was good enough for that dance. Oh well, may be next year! (So I thought).

Friday afternoon the General called me to discuss some business matters. At the end of the discussion she mentioned the Level II recital dance again. But then, she mentioned the Level III recital dance. I said, “Excuse me? I thought you didn’t want me to do the Level III dance?” and her response was (in a nutshell) “No, I do want you to do that dance. That is what we are going to be preparing for in the first hour. The second hour is reserved for the Company and their recital dances. I want you to try to be in the Level III dance. Don’t you want to be in it?” *Joy. OF COURSE I want to be in the Level III recital dance! That dance is probably going to be super kick ass and I cannot WAIT to see what she has planned. Sure I am nervous, but if the General thinks I am good enough to dance along side the best girls in her studio, than who am I to argue?! “Not I” said the fly.

So obviously, I am super pumped. Not only am I going to be in a Level II dance and a pointe dance, but I am also going to be in the Level III and the Level I!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! WAHOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!! This time last year me and Ms. Disney was plugging away at one dance and now I am in four! I am so happy. Let’s just hope my pirouettes and fouettes start coming around. FINGER (and TOES) are crossed.

Meanwhile, the General has been racking her brain trying to determine what songs to use the recital. I found an awesome song on YouTube and she is actually taking it into consideration. She may not use it, but it doesn’t matter. The General is a classical ballerina, but she definitely like her music a little more edgy. The artist is Lindsey Stirling and the song is called “Elements”. I am pretty sure Lindsey is or was a dancer. She moves like one in her video. She also plays with the Piano Guys. You should check them out too.

Liebser Blog Award

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Thank you Mr. Gluten Free (Vegan) for nominating me for the Leibster blog award. I am not sure what it is really all about, but I am still truly honored that someone thought my blog was worthy for any kind of award. It is like I received my first Dundee (this is totally an Office reference and my husband insisted upon it.)

Now for the rules:
■Add the award icon into your blog
■Link to your nominator and say thank you.
■Post 11 random things about yourself.
■Answer 11 questions from the person who nominated you.
■Nominate 11 bloggers (and let them know).
■Post 11 new questions to the bloggers you nominate.

11 Random Things About Me:
1. I am a Virgo/Libra because I was born on the cusp. I am totally confused as to what astrological sign I identify with the most.
2. I am all of a sudden infatuated with Korean Pop and classical music. Any correlation? I have no idea, but for some reason their music seems sense to me right now.
3. If I could do my college career over again, I would go to dental school. I love the idea of being a doctor, but not necessarily into all of the schooling involved. Being a dentist is the perfect medium.
4. I hate most foods. Seriously, this is no joke. What I want to eat I cannot eat because it is too unhealthy. Most healthy food tastes mundane and boring, so I would rather just eat nothing. Some days I just stare into the cupboard and fridge and think, “Naa. I will just drink wine. Not worth the effort.”
5. When I was a kid I thought: (1) I could communicate with animals with my mind; (2) Was a robot (or wish I was); and (3) Wished I had one eye so I could wear an eye patch because I thought they were super cool. My eye patch would have a jeweled eye over the eye I used to have. Yup – that’s cool incarnate.
6. My favorite TV shows are The Office, Family Guy, Robot Chicken, Tales From the Crypt, Seinfeld and True Blood.
7. My hair is really shiny. Seriously, it shines.
8. I like the smell of bleach.
9. I don’t like politics.
10. I think I should be a comedian. I know I am funny. Plus, I am humble!!
11. I love blogging and the other bloggers I follow/follow me.

My 11 Questions:

1. Do you like mayonnaise? (Cause I think its disgusting).
2. Have you ever had a recurrent dream?
3. Have you ever passed gas in a room thinking you were alone and then (BAM) someone walked in? If so, what did you do?
4. Name your favorite horror movie, even though you may not like them.
5. Do you currently have a favorite pillow you sleep with? How about a blanket or a stuffed animal?
6. If you won a million dollars, what is the FIRST thing you would do.
7. What is the worst Christmas present you ever got?
8. If you could be anything in the world, what would you be?
9. Have you ever been in a real fight? If so – what happened?
10. Do you like the current era you live in or would you rather live in a different one? If so, which era would it be? (Me? the 70’s. Alllll the way.)
11. What is the worst thing you ever did to a sibling? If you don’t have siblings, what is the worst thing you intentionally did to your parents? (Cause it’s the same thing.)

Answers to the 11 Questions:
1. St. Croix. Paradise. Period.
2. I love 9 pm. That is when the chaos stops.
3. When my husband and kids are happy.
4. Meeting new people that I would have NEVER met if it wasn’t for blogging.
5. That’s tough. Snickers candy bars?
6. Dancing or running
7. Actually, yes. A little. Just with one hand though.
8. NO. That is crazy talk.
9. I can sing. I think I am pretty good for “regular people” standards. Everyone who knows me knows I can sing, because that is all I do.
10. It is a foreign film called “Headhunters”. It was good. I haven’t had time to finish it yet though. I LOVE foreign action/horror films. Subtitles do not bother me in the least. Actually, I always have subtitles because I do not want to miss any dialogue.
11. My favorite memor(ies) is me giving birth to my children. It still brings tears to my eyes.

And the 11 lucky nominees are:
Disneyballerina
Are2Fit2Quit
Beauty Grace Strength
Indjagar
Summer Zheng
Allie Duthie
Mercietchantons
The Spicy Mermaid
Isaac J. Hall
Cecilia Maria
Adult Ballerina Project

LB Needs to Stop Stressin’!

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As expected, my return to work after the holiday season has been nuts-o-la. I am scheduled to travel every day for the next month. I have hearings, after hearings, after hearings which is on top of new client meetings, paperwork, research and case preparation. So naturally, it has been difficult to fulfill other obligations in my life. My blog has definitely taken a back seat. Sorry about that.

Since I am so stressed at work, the last thing I want adding more stress in my life is dance. I love ballet so very, very much, but admittedly, it can cause stress in my life as well. Why? Well, because I am a perfectionist and I don’t like to be anything less than perfect. It is a terrible personality trait to possess. I am trying to work harder on perfecting my inside and less on my outside, but it is certainly a work-in-progress. Anywho, the last couple Monday classes (Level 3) have been a little “rough”, so to speak. All of a sudden my double pirouettes are deteriorating and my fouettes are not advancing as quickly as I would prefer. I feel myself hopping on releve when I turn more than once. Boo. And my fouettes? I just cannot stay centered. These two movements seem to contaminate the rest of my class because then it feels like everything is out of whack! Is it normal to regress a little? Is it just nerves getting the best of me? I really don’t know at this point. Either way, the Monday classes are starting to put undue stress on me. I do NOT need anything else causing stress in my life. I have bigger fish to fry. My family is number one, then work and THEN dance. So, something has got to give.

I have been trying to talk to the General about my feelings regarding the Monday class, but because of our conflicting schedules we have not been able to connect. I texted her earlier in the week to let her know of my concerns, but she is not a texter. I didn’t expect her to type me back. I am worried that she will be disappointed in me. I don’t want her to think I am a quitter or that I don’t believe in myself. I am NO quitter and I do think that I am on track to becoming the ballerina I want to be. I just don’t know if I belong in that class necessarily. The girls do such advanced combinations. I feel like I am floundering. Plus, the General is about to begin working on the Level 3 recital dance. *Yikes! Given my performance as of late, I doubt the General will even want me to be in it and that is totally fine.

However, and I have said this many times before, if the General thinks I should stay there and just tough it out, I will. Maybe I am just being overly dramatic. Maybe I am really not that pathetic in the class. All I know is that I have been feeling out of place in that class. If my feelings are misdirected, I just want to know. I promise to stop stressing, as long as the General doesn’t think that there is another class that is better suited for my current skill level.

Until that discussion is had, I will try to de-stress. Besides, it’s almost Friday. YEAH-YA!

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My kids and I; looking the way God made us, but sillier.

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Me and Bear doing the boo-boo-kissy face. Always a crowd favorite.

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….and then that’s when things got out of hand…

Sissy as a kitty-cat.  (Meow).

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Haven’t you heard? My son is a man of the cloth (err, I mean gown).  He is so holy.

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Mirror, mirror on the wall.  Who is the funkiest ballerina of them all? Why, it’s me!!

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I even stole a picture from Ms. Disney’s Facebook and got her involved in our shenanigans.  I couldn’t help it. 

Her face just screams “pee on me” doesn’t it? Ewwwwwww HA!

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