Hello strangers. Just in case you have forgotten, it is I, the Legal Ballerina. It has been a while since I have last posted. I usually post once a day, but lately I have barely mustered enough motivation to post once a week. There are good reasons for this. Last week was mentally and emotionally draining. I worked like a dog, my assistant was sick most of the week, so were my children, and I had a disagreement with a good friend. I can take working long hours and tending to my children, but getting in arguments with people I care about is hard for me to deal with. For so long I have disconnected myself from people (who are not family) and I have finally started letting other people in. I quickly realized the more people you let in, the more likely you are going to get hurt. Hence, why I chose to seclude myself. This is no way to live. I decided to start taking chances on people and I am really glad I did. Ms. Disney was my first friend in a long time. We have had our ups and downs, but I trust her. She will not abandon me over a difference of opinions or personality flaws (I have SO MANY). I have recently started to get to know someone new and we are currently on a “down.” I don’t know how she feels about it, but I really hope we can get things back on track and learn to trust each other again. I am hopeful, but admittedly apprehensive. I can control what I think and feel, but cannot control others. I just have to stay positive and allow nature to take its course. She is just too special to let go.
As for dance news – none to report, really. All I know is I need to start putting in some serious practice time. I have been a little lax on this. Why? I am trying to be more physically rounded. I started going back to the gym and working on cardio and upper body twice a week. I dance twice a week and so that leaves one day where I can fit practice in. That should be enough. It has to. I am just too busy with family and work to do any more than that.
Speaking of exercise, my new gym routine has one unexpected drawback – my lower back has started to arch. My butt sticks out, literally. This was pointed out to me in class the other day. Ballerinas do not have J Lo booties. I know this new arch has something to do with me working out my lower back a lot. I am trying to build the muscles in my lower back so I can hold my attitudes a terre, arabesques and a deeper bend in my port de bras. Boo. I think I need to work my abs more to balance out my core. Ug. Self improvement never ends.
I hope to have a better week. I appreciate any good vibes you all can send me.